The Last One

Dear me,

I never talked to you (myself) much (for that I can't explain how sorry I am), yet I don't know why I'm terrified of the fact that it's going to be our last conversation from this body to this soul. It's painful that this body will burn down in ashes and all that will be left is a remembrance in people's thoughts and that again will only be there for a few days, months, or a few years for someone.

I'm amazed living so much of life, seeing so many aspects yet at this moment I feel like, this one life is not enough and why is it not enough? Why do I have to end it? And then some thoughts like I need to relive my childhood, I need to make a few fewer mistakes in my next life. Because I have done so many mistakes now even though I tried getting everyone's forgiveness, I failed drastically.
Dear Maa Papa, you guys are the best parent in existence. You've given me so much that even if I try getting all of your blessings and teachings into this death note, I might end up writing a book or more. I wish to get parents like you in my next life, where I utilize your kindness and love to its fullest, where I don't fail you, and where you would be proud of me.
And I promise when I will be closing my eyes for the last time, I'll have your visuals as my last known visual. I love you both. God, I will miss you. But don't you dare miss me, take care of each other, and please be happy because you know if I hadn't decided to end myself here, I would have always wanted you guys to be happy.
Dear Friends, to those who are still here in my life and who isn't. You guys are beyond my expectations, from teaching me how to drink and smoke you guys have also taught me how to live life. Everyone, each of you who chose to stay with me and who let me stay with them, you guys are gems. Remember me, whenever you get the time, and also remember that whenever you'll be remembering I'll be smiling.
It's the time guys, I have to go. I've been tired of so long, taking all bullshit and still smiling.
To those with who I was good, give a blessing.
To those with who I wasn't good enough, I beg your forgiveness.
And, to those who are yet to meet me, I might return someday, we'll meet, either in this world or the other.

Next Part: 29th June 2020
Till then, Stay Healthy, Keep Reading, Keep Writing.

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